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There is not anything wrong with having a poor relationship with one's emotions, so do not lament upon that. The fact that you can be in touch with them when it matters is what is important.
Above all else, keeping a calm demeanor is more important than letting things get too wild.

Which means your anger is something you will have to learn how to control, as well.

I have a question for you.

Has your incapability to control your emotions become something new for you?
...Something that was easier to handle before this incident we both suffered?

[It was difficult not to lament upon something he had for... the single decade he's been a person. He's wanted to badly to understand his own heart that not dwelling on his inadequacy in that regard felt impossible. He wanted to improve.

He struggled to find that happy medium. Probably moreso given that question Vergil asked that had him go quiet for a moment.]

... Mm. My awareness of my anger gave me a stronger handle on it. While we were in there, however... I couldn't. I tried and it did not work.

I had few problems managing my temper before this. [Not none, but few.]

[ he will wait, of course. vergil is nothing if not patient--calmly settling where he's holding the phone in his fingers.

when takame finally answers, he'll nod his head--in a nearly grim way. he hadn't wanted to have his concerns confirmed--but there they were. ]

Before we were taken by these beings, I had the ability to look at something and tell if it was magical. It was a very vague, quiet power. Sort of like being able to see something glow.

After we escaped that place--my ability got so strong that it was nearly blinding for a week.

[ so, that being said... ]

I believe that this is why your anger is hard to control, now.
They did something.
They did something, and I worry that it may be irreversibly changed.

...

[Aside from a mild growl, there was a long pause. That... was what he was afraid of. There was comfort in a confirmation, but the absolute dread that whatever happened to them may not be changed.

What if... what if he hurt someone because of this...?

He tried to be calm, taking a deep breath. Once, twice, three times. He tried to look back on this week past. Possession... he was in control of all his faculties. He did not hear the voice of any other save for what his gift of prophecy gave him...]

I... I share the same concern. My sight has been similarly affected. The eyes of a dragon in my realm held their power... [He spoke no more of it and instead took another deep breath.]

Thus far I've not felt the sensation of being possessed by something.

I feel that was part of their purpose of throwing us into those insane labyrinths.

It was their attempts to 'test' our powers that they were attempting to drag out of us, or whatever the hell it was they were doing.

...[ he considers Takame's comment about possession, while watching him trying to calm himself down. He didn't miss that growl, buddy, and he almost feels like he understands his stress. Fortunately, he didn't get stuck with rage as a power, but... ]

Perhaps it is lucky that I already have been possessed by something before the incident.

I believe your friend Rose was not so lucky.

... I see. [He'll say nothing more on the matter of whatever possessed Vergil. If it was before Krusnik it was none of his business until it threatened someone he cared about.]

When we were saved I did not notice anything off or different about her presence. I can only hope she was not possessed either, but only she will be able to confirm for sure. [A sigh and a shake of his head. There's something mumbled on the other line in Japanese that even with a language barrier could be interpreted as some kind of swear or other sentiment of this fucking sucks.]

...Perhaps we should talk to her as well.

I am terrible at approaching others, but... I suppose this one time, I can make an exception.

[ for better or for worse, he, takame, and rose were bonded by some sort of similar fate, after all. ]

She would appreciate hearing from you, I believe. Simply to know that you are recovering. I may reach out to her myself to ensure that she is doing the same. I contacted a mutual friend for her to stay with so that she is not alone.

[For as wild as Amal came off, he was reliable and caring.]

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